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		<title>Listening: Joe Purdy</title>
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		<pubDate>Mon, 30 May 2011 16:33:08 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>anna</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[<p>Not like the stuff I usually listen to but I&#8217;ve been giving this a few rotations:</p> <p></p> ]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Not like the stuff I usually listen to but I&#8217;ve been giving this a few rotations:</p>
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		<title>The organ of subversion</title>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 05 May 2011 17:46:55 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>anna</dc:creator>
				<category><![CDATA[Diaries & Dreams]]></category>
		<category><![CDATA[Pondering & Rambling...]]></category>
		<category><![CDATA[irony]]></category>
		<category><![CDATA[London]]></category>
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		<description><![CDATA[<p>I&#8217;ve always liked the Sex Pistols song &#8216;Anarchy in the UK&#8217; as I find it hilarious, and often actually laugh out loud when listening to it, primarily because of the parenthetical insertion at the end: &#8220;&#8230; and I want to be an anarchist! (and get pissed). Destroy!&#8221; I was talking to my partner about [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>I&#8217;ve always liked the Sex Pistols song &#8216;Anarchy in the UK&#8217; as I find it hilarious, and often actually laugh out loud when listening to it, primarily because of the parenthetical insertion at the end: &#8220;&#8230; and I want to be an anarchist! (and get pissed). Destroy!&#8221; I was talking to my partner about this yesterday and he said the song is about &#8220;the lyricist passing judgement on the &#8216;anarchist&#8217;&#8221; which seems about right. It&#8217;s all about the petty acts of &#8216;revolution&#8217; (that aren&#8217;t really) that might, just maybe, bring about anarchy. Like giving someone the wrong time when they ask. Or holding up a line of traffic!</p>
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<p>I think we&#8217;ve all committed these small acts of subversion, that of course are utterly, mind-numbingly conventional (and unoriginal).</p>
<p>Mine was buying a Tube ticket (in the days when you had to go up to the window and ask, this was before we had Oyster cards!) at Charing Cross and asking for a ticket to &#8220;St <strong>Pancreas</strong>&#8220;. Revolution! Indeed.</p>
<p>The strange thing though is the other week I was buying some other train tickets for London and the guy working at the station at the ticket desk said &#8220;St Pancreas&#8221;, thinking I had misheard I ensured conversationally <img src='http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-includes/images/smilies/icon_wink.gif' alt=';)' class='wp-smiley' />  that it was said again, and there it was, St Pancreas. Is it a small act of subversion by a railway employee? A way of introducing some interest (and I use the word quite loosely) into an otherwise tedious day? Or perhaps this guy really thinks it is St Pancreas and no one has had the heart to set him straight!</p>
<p>Or perhaps it really is St Pancreas and I&#8217;ve been wrong all this time&#8230; now that really would be subversive. I&#8217;d get out my Tube map and check but I&#8217;m too busy starting my own small revolution.</p>
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		<title>Designing: Gwibber themes (1)</title>
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		<pubDate>Mon, 02 May 2011 16:48:45 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>anna</dc:creator>
				<category><![CDATA[Graphics]]></category>
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		<description><![CDATA[<p>I use Gwibber to keep up with the various micro-blogging (Twitter, Facebook updates, identi.ca etc) services and having just installed Ubuntu 11.04 &#8216;Natty Narwhal&#8217; (which includes Gwibber by default) I thought now is a good time to work on some themes. The supplied themes &#8211; &#8216;ubuntu&#8217; and &#8216;default&#8217; plus those available in the gwibber-themes [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>I use <a href="http://gwibber.com/" target="_blank">Gwibber</a> to keep up with the various micro-blogging (Twitter, Facebook updates, identi.ca etc) services and having just installed Ubuntu 11.04 &#8216;Natty Narwhal&#8217; (which includes Gwibber by default) I thought now is a good time to work on some themes. The supplied themes &#8211; &#8216;ubuntu&#8217; and &#8216;default&#8217; plus those available in the gwibber-themes package &#8211; are good but I found they didn&#8217;t contain exactly what I needed so have now been creating some of my own that also integrate with the UI settings.</p>
<p><span id="more-733"></span>Here&#8217;s one I came up with using the &#8216;default&#8217; theme to work from. I made changes in the CSS to have rounding and drop shadows for the avatar images, message bubbles and to change the formatting a bit for colouring. Most of the supplied themes seem to have &#8220;account colouring&#8221; in the theme, i.e. when you have multiple accounts with a different colour attached to them, the theme will use it in the display. This can be useful or sometimes I am using Gwibber just to aggregate and read messages rather than post and reply so am not concerned about the account colouring and wanted it all to have a uniform colour (that fits in with the desktop theme).</p>
<p><a href="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/05/Rounded11.png"><img class="alignnone size-medium wp-image-737" title="Rounded1" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/05/Rounded11-300x176.png" alt="" width="300" height="176" /></a><br />
Here&#8217;s how it appears under the Radiance theme&#8230;</p>
<p><a href="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/05/Rounded21.png"><img class="alignnone size-medium wp-image-738" title="Rounded2" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/05/Rounded21-300x176.png" alt="" width="300" height="176" /></a><br />
&#8230; and the Ambiance theme</p>
<p><a href="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/05/Rounded3.png"><img class="alignnone size-medium wp-image-739" title="Rounded3" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/05/Rounded3-300x176.png" alt="" width="300" height="176" /></a><br />
If a different theme is selected (this is Clearlooks with some custom blue colours) it will pick up the theme colours accordingly.</p>
<p><a href="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/05/Rounded4.png"><img class="alignnone size-medium wp-image-740" title="Rounded4" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/05/Rounded4-300x176.png" alt="" width="300" height="176" /></a><br />
This is with multiple streams, e.g. for twitter and facebook.</p>
<p><a href="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/05/RoundedWithAccts1.png"><img class="alignnone size-medium wp-image-742" title="RoundedWithAccts1" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/05/RoundedWithAccts1-300x176.png" alt="" width="300" height="176" /></a><br />
In this version the borders of the messages take on the colour associated with the account (as it is done in some of the supplied themes).</p>
<p><a href="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/05/RoundedWithAccts2.png"><img class="alignnone size-medium wp-image-743" title="RoundedWithAccts2" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/05/RoundedWithAccts2-300x176.png" alt="" width="300" height="176" /><br />
</a>Multiple streams with account colouring<a href="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/05/RoundedWithAccts2.png"></a></p>
<p>The code I used for these is mostly CSS and I&#8217;ve included it below. Generally it can be done by making a copy of the &#8216;default&#8217; theme folder (in /usr/share/gwibber/ui/themes) to a new folder with the name required e.g. &#8216;MyTheme&#8217;. I&#8217;ve overridden the <strong>template.mako</strong> and added <strong>main.css</strong> to the folder (with overridden styles compared to the defaults).</p>
<p>In main.css:</p>
<blockquote><p>* {<br />
color: ${theme['fg'].hex};<br />
}</p>
<p>body<br />
{<br />
background-color: ${theme['bg'].hex};<br />
margin: 0px;<br />
}</p>
<p>.imgbox {<br />
width: 38px;<br />
height: 38px;<br />
margin-right: 10px;<br />
margin-top: 0px;<br />
-webkit-border-radius: 3px;<br />
border: 1px ${theme['fg'].darker(.6).hex} solid;<br />
-webkit-box-shadow: 2px 2px 5px ${theme['fg'].darker(.4).hex};<br />
}</p>
<p>.thumbnails img {<br />
-webkit-border-radius: 3px;<br />
border: 1px solid ${theme['fg'].darker(.6).hex};<br />
-webkit-box-shadow: 2px 2px 5px ${theme['fg'].darker(.4).hex};<br />
}</p>
<p>.basemsg .message {<br />
-webkit-border-radius: 0px;<br />
margin-bottom: 6px;<br />
margin-top: 1px;<br />
margin-right: 6px;<br />
}</p>
<p>.title {<br />
color: ${theme['fg'].darker(.8).hex};<br />
}</p>
<p>.time<br />
{<br />
color: ${theme["bg_selected"].darker(.65).hex};<br />
}</p></blockquote>
<p>In <strong>template.mako</strong> I changed the top section as follows for the non-account-coloured theme -</p>
<blockquote><p>&lt;%namespace name=&#8221;base&#8221; file=&#8221;base.mako&#8221;&gt;<br />
&lt;%def name=&#8221;msgstyle(data)&#8221;&gt;<br />
background: -webkit-gradient(linear, left top, left bottom,<br />
from(${theme["bg"].hex}),<br />
to(${theme["bg"].darker(.9).hex}));</p>
<p>border: 1px solid ${theme['fg'].hex};<br />
-webkit-border-radius: 8px;<br />
-webkit-box-shadow: 2px 2px 5px ${theme['fg'].darker(.4).hex};</p>
<p>&lt;/%def&gt;<br />
&lt;/%namespace&gt;</p></blockquote>
<p>or for the account-coloured one:</p>
<blockquote><p>&lt;%namespace name=&#8221;base&#8221; file=&#8221;base.mako&#8221;&gt;<br />
&lt;%def name=&#8221;msgstyle(data)&#8221;&gt;<br />
background: -webkit-gradient(linear, left top, left bottom,<br />
from(${theme["bg"].hex}),<br />
to(${theme["bg"].darker(.9).hex}));</p>
<p>border: 1px solid ${data['color'].hex};<br />
-webkit-border-radius: 8px;<br />
-webkit-box-shadow: 2px 2px 5px ${theme['fg'].darker(.4).hex};</p>
<p>&lt;/%def&gt;<br />
&lt;/%namespace&gt;</p></blockquote>
<p>and added the call to main.css at the bottom</p>
<blockquote><p>&lt;style&gt;<br />
&lt;%include file=&#8221;css.mako&#8221; /&gt;<br />
&lt;%include file=&#8221;defaultcss.mako&#8221; /&gt;<br />
<strong>&lt;%include file=&#8221;main.css&#8221; /&gt;</strong><br />
&lt;/style&gt;</p></blockquote>
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		<title>There&#8217;s a Dualist inside there!</title>
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		<pubDate>Sat, 30 Apr 2011 09:12:06 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>anna</dc:creator>
				<category><![CDATA[Emergent phenomena]]></category>
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		<description><![CDATA[<p>The other day whilst out and about in town two people from our local Latter Day Saints (Mormon) church stopped us in the street with a bunch of questions like &#8220;do you believe in God?&#8221; &#8220;do you think there&#8217;s an afterlife?&#8221; etc.</p> <p>I&#8217;m usually polite to people like this &#8211; people who stop you [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>The other day whilst out and about in town two people from our local Latter Day Saints (Mormon) church stopped us in the street with a bunch of questions like &#8220;do you believe in God?&#8221; &#8220;do you think there&#8217;s an afterlife?&#8221; etc.</p>
<p>I&#8217;m usually polite to people like this &#8211; people who stop you on the street for various reasons [1] I mean &#8211; as they are just doing a job and these guys actually seemed like nice people! Though it&#8217;s a bit much before lunchtime. I&#8217;d only had 4 coffees by then!</p>
<p><span id="more-708"></span>I wasn&#8217;t sure they were quite ready for my &#8220;God as aggregation of consciousness&#8221;, &#8220;heaven and hell as emergent properties&#8221; etc beliefs though, so didn&#8217;t really get drawn into the discussion or I&#8217;d have probably been there all day, not to mention it isn&#8217;t nice to string people along with increasingly divergent (from their agenda) statements and questions. (But <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Devil%27s_advocate">so much fun</a>!)</p>
<p>How do you come to believe? Is it a rational decision? I&#8217;ve never felt that I fitted into a &#8216;conventional&#8217; church or other religious group (no surprise! I&#8217;m totally unique, me&#8230;) though I&#8217;ve been entered on school forms etc as &#8220;C of E&#8221; as a sort of religious default (here in the UK). Can you actively decide to believe something? Logic says no.</p>
<p>I remember clearly though, at a young age (about 5) saying to my Mum that &#8220;I&#8217;ve been thinking about it and I&#8217;ve decided there probably is a God, but it&#8217;s probably not like the one we have at school&#8221; or some similar thing. (My Mum, like me, is of the belief that religion is for the individual to decide and shouldn&#8217;t be pushed into it by upbringing etc, which is odd as she has some quite conservative views in other ways! So I&#8217;d been thinking about this independently for some reason.)</p>
<p style="text-align: right;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/moogan/160192313/"><img class="alignright size-medium wp-image-710" title="160192313_19a8668cfd" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/160192313_19a8668cfd-300x219.jpg" alt="" width="300" height="219" /></a><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/moogan/160192313/" target="_blank">Image credit: &#8220;halved&#8221; by Peter Morgan (Creative Commons Attribution license).</a></p>
<p>Anyway, lately, and especially since getting a cat (!) I&#8217;ve had this increasing sense of <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Philosophy_of_mind" target="_blank">Dualism</a>, which I gather isn&#8217;t fashionable any more. (<em>What? You mean I have to get rid of this tie-dye T-shirt with integrated shoulder pads as well?</em>) Having studied Philosophy with the Open University (course A211 for any amateur biographers following along; sadly discontinued now) where there was a block on philosophy of mind and monism/dualism/Descartes etc it&#8217;s something I should have thought about before.</p>
<p>It seems natural to me to think of the mental process of a cat (or person!) going on &#8220;inside there&#8221; as a self distinct from (and not reducible to a side-effect of) the workings of the physical body. As in &#8220;there&#8217;s a whole experiencing individual inside there&#8221; which I am constantly surprised by! My other half thinks this is pretty strange and that there Is Only One Cat, looks at me and says &#8220;there&#8217;s a dualist inside there&#8221;. (Probably!) He also turned the &#8220;do you believe in the afterlife&#8221; question back on the missionaries by asking them why they do believe in an afterlife (and perhaps worryingly, they weren&#8217;t able to give an answer other than that they just realised this was the case!)&#8230;</p>
<p>I don&#8217;t always realise clearly the distinction between things I know/believe and things others know/believe and had just assumed really that everyone would see that there&#8217;s an individual &#8220;inside&#8221; the cat etc but on asking a few people it seems like I am in the minority with this now!</p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p>[1] Wouldn&#8217;t it be good if the Germans had a <em>Schadenfreude</em>-like word to encompass <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Latter-day_Saints">Mormons</a>, <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chugger">chuggers</a>, <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Market_research">market researchers</a>, catalogue-signer-uppers, <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Automobile_Association">AA sales agents</a> etc? I&#8217;d co-opt it in a heartbeat!</p>
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		<title>Revisiting Eternity II</title>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 29 Apr 2011 17:52:40 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>anna</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[<p>As previously written about here I, like many others, thought there &#8220;must be&#8221; a way to solve the Eternity II puzzle&#8230; Not deluding myself that I would be the one to win the prize exactly (although there&#8217;s a possibility [1] I might have said during last year that I was &#8220;about 50% confident&#8221; that [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>As previously written about <a href="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/2010/the-hunt-for-a-solution-to-eternity-ii-goes-on/">here</a> I, like many others, thought there &#8220;must be&#8221; a way to solve the Eternity II puzzle&#8230; Not deluding myself that I would be the one to win the prize exactly (although there&#8217;s a possibility [1] I might have said during last year that I was &#8220;about 50% confident&#8221; that I would solve it&#8230;) but more that &#8216;surely&#8217; it should be possible, that although no algorithm can exist that would solve &#8216;all&#8217; problems of this class, that it could be solved by the combination of human intelligence and computing power. Stepping outside the system is what&#8217;s required to solve most problems of this type, and why computers are terrible at it (in general) and artificial intelligence is probably, not only light years away, but conceptually not actually possible.</p>
<p><span id="more-703"></span>Anyway, I&#8217;ve decided to pick up working on this again although the prize deadline has passed, as I think it&#8217;s an interesting, challenging and worthwhile puzzle in itself. Not to mention, even without the prize money, being the first person to solve the thing and come up with decent code (and documentation&#8230;) would be good for a CV (Britain) / resume (America) and be something to generally boast, gloat and feel self-satisfied about. (And I can&#8217;t get enough of those! <img src='http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-includes/images/smilies/icon_smile.gif' alt=':)' class='wp-smiley' />  )</p>
<p>Actually I was relieved that the deadline passed and no-one had managed to solve it, as if anything it just proves that the problem is &#8220;non-trivial&#8221; and otherwise I&#8217;d have thought &#8220;So-and-so managed to solve it, why couldn&#8217;t I?&#8221; and had a huge crisis of confidence in my abilities as a geek etc. Especially as I&#8217;d started working on it quite late (the competition was open for about 3 years in the end, and I only started on it a few months before the final scrutiny date). I was quite confident though that someone would have solved it! With all that mathematical, computer science and other experience that must exist &#8216;out there&#8217;. Many of these people are much better mathematicians and coders than I, so there must be some &#8216;extra ingredient&#8217; as to why it still isn&#8217;t solved.</p>
<p>A lot of people seem to be saying a solution &#8216;ought to&#8217; be published now that the deadline has passed, to prove that there was actually such a solution, it was possible to solve (i.e. known to be possible) and therefore was a fair competition. I have no doubt that it is genuine and that it is known (whether through physically having a solution, or a proof of why it&#8217;s possible) that such a solution exists, I expect the lawyers/insurance companies/whoever would have insisted on that in any case (to avoid complaints of the &#8220;it was never possible to win&#8221; variety)! I think if a solution were to be published (by the Powers That Be) that it would diminish any remaining enjoyment from solving it, much more interesting to carry on in pursuit of not just a &#8220;random&#8221; solution that works&#8230; but a method for generating the solutions&#8230;</p>
<p>I&#8217;m not sure if the rule about &#8220;not disclosing details of pieces&#8221; still applies so I&#8217;m assuming it does, so this is just in general terms. I started out with a kind of &#8220;control group&#8221; algorithm with random placement of the (non-border) pieces, initially without the &#8216;fixed&#8217; piece being placed, and then with. Placed all the pieces and then carried out 2-way and 3-way swaps determined stochastically and with a weighting for &#8216;improvement&#8217; of that solution and other factors. As you can imagine the results from this were pretty poor (as I&#8217;d expected, this was just for a &#8220;baseline&#8221; number of correct edges). I changed a couple of conditions and got minor improvements. Interestingly though, I made a programming error which greatly increased the quality of the solutions (to about 250 edges matched, not great at all but not bad for a random algorithm with no &#8220;intelligence&#8221;) and there was no &#8216;logical&#8217; reason this should be, something outside the system had caused this to be the case. So I started looking at the &#8216;higher level&#8217; things that have to be true of a solution.</p>
<p>The problem of course is the sheer amount of possible combinations and data that have to be handled (I&#8217;m not sure of the exact GB size that it would theoretically be, but the number is close enough to infinity not to matter!) and how we usually deal with these situations is to &#8216;chunk&#8217; things according to particular properties. Coming up with an appropriate &#8216;classification&#8217; scheme I think is the way to deal with this puzzle. This entails knowing what features are relevant or are just &#8216;noise&#8217; and what level to work at (and obviously, I don&#8217;t know what the answer to this is or it would be solved!) but I&#8217;ve no doubt that it requires a human to &#8216;step outside the system&#8217; and help the computer &#8216;see&#8217; things it can&#8217;t see for itself!</p>
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<p>[1] &#8220;There&#8217;s a possibility that&#8230;&#8221; in the sense that one says &#8220;There&#8217;s a possibility I might have left a huge mess in the kitchen&#8221; or &#8220;There&#8217;s a possibility that what I just said isn&#8217;t strictly true&#8221;, etc.</p>
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		<title>Creating a dark, filmic image effect in GIMP</title>
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		<pubDate>Mon, 25 Apr 2011 10:59:10 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[<p>I was working with some images in GIMP and from the original photos (which represented &#8216;real life&#8217; quite accurately) I wanted some slightly more dramatic &#8220;filmic&#8221; looking images perhaps for walls etc.</p> <p> (Attribution is detailed in the main text)</p> <p>As always, if the image is to be printed etc then work with the [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>I was working with some images in GIMP and from the original photos (which represented &#8216;real life&#8217; quite accurately) I wanted some slightly more dramatic &#8220;filmic&#8221; looking images perhaps for walls etc.</p>
<p><a href="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/CopyCat.jpg"><img class="alignnone size-medium wp-image-694" title="CopyCat" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/CopyCat-300x225.jpg" alt="" width="300" height="225" /></a><br />
(Attribution is detailed in the main text)</p>
<p>As always, if the image is to be printed etc then work with the  highest resolution image you have (within reason!). [For these examples  I've used a relatively small 640px JPG for the sake of the server <img src='http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-includes/images/smilies/icon_wink.gif' alt=';-)' class='wp-smiley' />   but for work to be printed, I use a much higher resolution than this.] <em>NOTE: if you are displaying/distributing an image, then check you have the appropriate licensing</em>.</p>
<p>Here&#8217;s some steps&#8230;</p>
<p><span id="more-674"></span>For this example I&#8217;ve used the photo: <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/flikr/846993294">&#8220;alpha the cat&#8221; by Kelbv</a> (Creative Commons Attribution license) &#8211; the original is shown below:</p>
<p><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/flikr/846993294"><img class="alignnone size-medium wp-image-676" title="846993294_12090ed346_z" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/846993294_12090ed346_z-300x225.jpg" alt="" width="300" height="225" /></a></p>
<p>First open the image in GIMP, and duplicate the layer (<strong>Layer &gt; Duplicate Layer</strong>). There should be 2 identical layers &#8211; I&#8217;ve renamed them to &#8220;main image&#8221; and &#8220;effect layer&#8221; but they could be left as the default e.g. &#8220;Background&#8221; and &#8220;Background copy&#8221;, it doesn&#8217;t really matter as we will only have the 2 layers anyway.</p>
<p><a href="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/Screenshot-Layers.png"></a><a href="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/Screenshot-Layers-1.png"><img class="alignnone size-full wp-image-678" title="Screenshot-Layers-1" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/Screenshot-Layers-1.png" alt="" width="200" height="300" /></a></p>
<p>Change the layer mode to <strong>Grain Merge</strong>. This will probably create a sort of &#8220;super-intensity&#8221; image in the main window, don&#8217;t worry about this at the moment as it will be edited shortly. Other modes such as <strong>Multiply</strong> and <strong>Hard Light</strong> also work well and will produce a similar (but not identical) image. Grain Merge is shown below.</p>
<p><a href="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/Screenshot-Layers-2.png"><img class="alignnone size-full wp-image-679" title="Screenshot-Layers-2" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/Screenshot-Layers-2.png" alt="" width="200" height="300" /></a></p>
<p>Now we are going to work with the &#8220;effect&#8221; layer, the copy we just added. Ensure this layer is selected (the selected one is the one that GIMP will work on).</p>
<p>De-saturate the image i.e. make it greyscale (<strong>Colours &gt; Desaturate &gt;</strong> choose shade of grey based on <strong>Average, Lightness or Luminosity</strong> as appropriate to the image you have). If you want to &#8220;Preview&#8221; it just for the active layer (rather than the effect on the image as a whole) then temporarily make the main image layer invisible (eye icon in the Layers window). I selected &#8216;Average&#8217; here.</p>
<p><a href="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/Screenshot-Desaturate.png"><img class="alignnone size-medium wp-image-681" title="Screenshot-Desaturate" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/Screenshot-Desaturate-300x172.png" alt="" width="300" height="172" /></a></p>
<p><a href="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/Cat1.jpg"><img class="alignnone size-medium wp-image-682" title="Cat1" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/Cat1-300x240.jpg" alt="" width="300" height="240" /></a></p>
<p>I then adjusted the brightness and contrast of the image &#8211; experiment with these (<strong>Colours &gt; Brightness and Contrast</strong> and/or <strong>Colours &gt; Curves&#8230;</strong>) to get the sort of shading you want. (If both layers are visible and you have &#8220;Preview&#8221; selected, you can check the effect on the image as you go.) This was the end result of the changes I made &#8211; I&#8217;ve shown the &#8220;effect&#8221; layer visible only, to see the type of contrast and brightness applied.</p>
<p><a href="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/Cat2.jpg"><img class="alignnone size-medium wp-image-684" title="Cat2" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/Cat2-300x221.jpg" alt="" width="300" height="221" /></a></p>
<p>In addition, you can add a &#8220;blur&#8221; to the effect layer &#8211; depending on what your original image is and what effect you want to create. I found it worked well with subjects such as the cat but for others you might want a &#8220;sharper&#8221; image. I applied a Gaussian Blur (<strong>Filters &gt; Blur &gt; Gaussian Blur</strong>) of 4px  to soften the image &#8211; experiment with this as appropriate to the particular image. Again, with both layers visible and selecting &#8220;Preview&#8221;, you can check its result as you go.</p>
<p>After applying the blur &#8230;</p>
<p><a href="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/Cat3.jpg"><img class="alignnone size-medium wp-image-685" title="Cat3" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/Cat3-300x263.jpg" alt="" width="300" height="263" /></a></p>
<p>&#8230; with the effect on the whole image as shown &#8230;</p>
<p><a href="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/Cat4.jpg"><img class="alignnone size-medium wp-image-686" title="Cat4" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/Cat4-300x263.jpg" alt="" width="300" height="263" /></a></p>
<p>&#8230; it&#8217;s getting there, but still looks a little too &#8216;cold&#8217; (IMO).</p>
<p>Using the Colourise tool (Colours &gt; Colourise) I then adjusted the colouring of the effect layer to give it a slightly more &#8220;sepia&#8221; look (I used Hue 37, Saturation 29 and Lightness 5 but again this will depend on the particular image).</p>
<p><a href="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/Cat5.jpg"><img class="alignnone size-medium wp-image-687" title="Cat5" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/Cat5-300x263.jpg" alt="" width="300" height="263" /></a></p>
<p>With both layers visible this was the before and after of the Hue/Saturation/Lightness adjustment. After/Before as shown:</p>
<p><a href="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/Cat6.jpg"><img class="alignnone size-thumbnail wp-image-688" title="Cat6" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/Cat6-150x131.jpg" alt="" width="150" height="131" /></a> <a href="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/Cat4.jpg"><img class="alignnone size-thumbnail wp-image-686" title="Cat4" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/Cat4-150x131.jpg" alt="" width="150" height="131" /></a><br />
With this method you can also optionally change the opacity of the &#8220;effect&#8221; layer to increase or decrease the effect. The images below are for 75% and 100% opacity.</p>
<p><a href="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/Cat7.jpg"><img class="alignnone size-thumbnail wp-image-689" title="Cat7" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/Cat7-150x131.jpg" alt="" width="150" height="131" /><br />
</a>75% opacity<a href="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/Cat7.jpg"><br />
</a></p>
<p><a href="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/Cat6.jpg"><img class="alignnone size-thumbnail wp-image-688" title="Cat6" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/Cat6-150x131.jpg" alt="" width="150" height="131" /></a><br />
100% opacity</p>
<p>Other effects could be applied to the &#8220;main&#8221; and/or &#8220;effect&#8221; layer as appropriate to the image. For example some of the colour settings (brightness/contrast etc) may need to be done to the base image to start with.</p>
<p><a href="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/CopyCat.jpg"><img class="alignnone size-medium wp-image-694" title="CopyCat" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/CopyCat-300x225.jpg" alt="" width="300" height="225" /></a></p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p><strong>Other examples</strong></p>
<p>For this I&#8217;ve used a few different pictures from Flickr Creative Commons to illustrate how it was applied. (As always thanks and kudos to those who take the time to release their photos as Creative Commons!)</p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p><strong>IKEA office</strong></p>
<p>I used the photo <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/donnieray/4633939268/">&#8220;Our IKEA office 3&#8243; by Donnie Ray Jones</a> (Creative Commons Attribution license).</p>
<p>This is the original:</p>
<p><strong><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/donnieray/4633939268/"><img class="alignnone size-medium wp-image-675" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/4633939268_d85429bdab_z-300x200.jpg" alt="" width="300" height="200" /></a></strong></p>
<p>As well as a method similar to the above I adjusted the colour balance (<strong>Colours &gt; Colour Balance</strong>) on the main image layer to add more yellow and red for the &#8220;highlights&#8221;, and applied some noise (<strong>Filters &gt; Noise &gt; RGB Noise</strong>) also to the main layer.</p>
<p><a href="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/IKEAModified.jpg"><img class="alignnone size-medium wp-image-693" title="IKEAModified" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/IKEAModified-300x200.jpg" alt="" width="300" height="200" /></a></p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p><strong>Flowers</strong></p>
<p>This original image is <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/ektogamat/2122976602/">&#8220;Flowers&#8221; by Anderson Mancini</a> (Creative Commons Attribution license)<strong>:</strong></p>
<p><strong><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/ektogamat/2122976602/"><img class="alignnone size-medium wp-image-695" title="2122976602_1692dcaacd_z" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/2122976602_1692dcaacd_z-300x190.jpg" alt="" width="300" height="190" /></a></strong></p>
<p>After modifying (I had to change the brightness and contrast quite a bit and some colour settings) I had an image that seemed &#8220;deeper&#8221; and darker.</p>
<p><a href="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/FlowersModified.jpg"><img class="alignnone size-medium wp-image-696" title="FlowersModified" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/FlowersModified-300x190.jpg" alt="" width="300" height="190" /></a></p>
<p>I also liked the effect of the <strong>Burn</strong> layer mode on this one.</p>
<p><a href="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/FlowersModified2.jpg"><img class="alignnone size-medium wp-image-698" title="FlowersModified2" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/FlowersModified2-300x190.jpg" alt="" width="300" height="190" /></a></p>
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		<dc:creator>anna</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[<p>In this previous post I installed a kernel module for the Wacom Bamboo tablet under Ubuntu 10.10. With my laptop this was all working fine, but I now also have a separate monitor (a Samsung Syncmaster F2380 for anyone keeping track), it&#8217;s a widescreen monitor that allows landscape or portrait orientation by physically rotating [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>In <a title="Hardware: Wacom Bamboo Pen &amp; Touch (CTH-460) on Ubuntu 10.10 (Maverick)" href="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/2010/hardware-wacom-bamboo-pen-touch-cth-460-on-ubuntu-10-10-maverick/" target="_blank">this previous post</a> I installed a kernel module for the Wacom Bamboo tablet under Ubuntu 10.10. With my laptop this was all working fine, but I now also have a separate monitor (a Samsung Syncmaster F2380 for anyone keeping track), it&#8217;s a widescreen monitor that allows landscape or portrait orientation by physically rotating the monitor screen.</p>
<p>A graphics tablet works by &#8220;mapping&#8221; the screen (or window) area to the tablet surface, so how does it work when the tablet and screen have a different aspect ratio? I set out to get this working, with a semi-elegant solution&#8230;</p>
<p><span id="more-634"></span><strong>Looking at the monitor aspect ratio<br />
</strong></p>
<p>This particular monitor is a 23&#8243; widescreen although the same principles should apply to any screen (adapting the maths accordingly). Its maximum resolution is 1920 by 1080 px &#8211; an aspect ratio of 1.777&#8230;:1 or more commonly known as 16:9.</p>
<p><a href="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/SDC10162.jpg"><img class="alignnone size-medium wp-image-637" title="Samsung F2380 in landscape mode" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/SDC10162-300x270.jpg" alt="" width="300" height="270" /></a></p>
<p>When rotated into portrait orientation, it obviously has the same dimensions, but with the vertical aspect ratio i.e. &#8220;9:16&#8243; rather than 16:9.</p>
<p><img title="Samsung F2380 in portrait mode" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/portrait.jpg" alt="" width="250" height="333" /></p>
<p>To be useful in portrait mode, we need to be able to rotate the screen display in Ubuntu to match (as obviously just physically rotating the screen won&#8217;t rotate the output, as the OS doesn&#8217;t &#8220;know&#8221; the screen has been turned around! <img src='http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-includes/images/smilies/icon_smile.gif' alt=':)' class='wp-smiley' />  )</p>
<p>This can be done in the GUI, from System &gt; Preferences &gt; Monitors, choosing the appropriate rotation (left in this case) where needed. Or it can be done using xrandr on the command line (which will set the same options) e.g.</p>
<blockquote><p>xrandr</p></blockquote>
<p>This will give a list of displays (e.g. monitor and laptop screen) and can be used to rotate the display on the command line (where &#8220;o&#8221; is for orientation). There are many other options it can carry out (xrandr -help will list them) but I haven&#8217;t used them here.</p>
<blockquote><p>xrandr -o left</p></blockquote>
<p>(Setting it back to normal will put it back in the default orientation!)</p>
<p>If your monitor has a different aspect ratio from this, the same principle still applies but with a slightly different calculation. It&#8217;s the ratio of the length and width, rather than the actual size, that&#8217;s important. For example a monitor with 1280 by 720 resolution would have the same aspect ratio and therefore the same relationship to the tablet.</p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p><strong>Making the graphics tablet match the monitor</strong></p>
<p>I found this wasn&#8217;t very well documented, so now I&#8217;ve found out myself how to do it by working from &#8220;first principles&#8221;, I&#8217;ll try to word it so that it can be understood easily! <img src='http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-includes/images/smilies/icon_smile.gif' alt=':)' class='wp-smiley' />  There is various documentation around but I couldn&#8217;t find anything that applied to my specific setup.</p>
<p><a href="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/tablet1.png"><img class="alignleft size-medium wp-image-659" title="Representation of the tablet - 1" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/tablet1-300x183.png" alt="" width="300" height="183" /></a>On a graphics tablet, as said above the surface of the tablet  represents the screen area. The tablet has its own physical dimensions &#8211; see <a href="http://www.wacom.com/bamboo/bamboo_pen_touch.php" target="_blank">the specification page on the Wacom site</a> for details of the measurements. The spec normally gives the size in inches and/or cm but we will see shortly it also has its own internal representation of its size and active area.</p>
<p>In the (admittedly rather crude) diagram I&#8217;ve shown a representation of the tablet, with the lighter grey area being the active surface.</p>
<p>Then what happens if the tablet and the screen have a different  aspect ratio? &#8211; By default, the whole area of the tablet is used to  represent the whole area of the display. So if they have different proportions, all sorts of strange things could happen. Moving the pen an inch vertically won&#8217;t represent the same amount of &#8216;movement&#8217; (on screen) as if you move it horizontally!</p>
<p>You can see this by drawing a circle (or anything of known proportions) on the tablet, in my case I drew around the circular hole in a CD but it can be anything you like. With a mismatch between the tablet and screen &#8220;units&#8221; I didn&#8217;t actually get a circle on screen! The red line is what was drawn, the dotted lines around it show the proportions that an actual circle should be. As you can see, it was &#8220;squashed&#8221; vertically compared to what I should have. The result would be similar (an elongated circle) for the portrait monitor orientation.</p>
<p><a href="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/NotACircle.jpg"><img class="alignnone size-medium wp-image-663" title="When is a circle not a circle" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/NotACircle-266x300.jpg" alt="When is a circle not a circle" width="266" height="300" /></a></p>
<p><a href="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/tablet2.png"><img class="alignright size-full wp-image-660" title="Screen and physical tablet area" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/tablet2.png" alt="" width="216" height="163" /></a>We need to &#8220;deactivate&#8221; a region of the tablet, so that the  available surface is in the same proportion as the screen we are using. This is a similar principle to when you have the black &#8220;bars&#8221; at the top and bottom of a TV screen when a movie is broadcast in a more &#8216;widescreen&#8217; format than the actual shape of your TV &#8211; the inactive area will be similar to the black bars.</p>
<p>The picture shows the grey area (from the image above)  with an orange area overlaid on it which is a representation of the actual area needed to use in order to map the tablet to the widescreen monitor in the same proportion. Logically it has to be this way rather than &#8216;enlarging&#8217; the active area, as you would then have part of the screen that can&#8217;t be reached by the tablet!</p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p><strong>Making the tablet match the monitor using xsetwacom</strong></p>
<p>The command line utility <a title="Wacom - Ubuntu help" href="https://help.ubuntu.com/community/Wacom" target="_blank">xsetwacom</a> can be used to set options for the tablet (see the instructions in that link for how to install the required packages to run xsetwacom, and how its options can be made &#8220;permanent&#8221; i.e. used for each session).</p>
<p>There are many options available so I&#8217;ve just gone into the ones needed to get this setup working, but the documentation contains many more!</p>
<p>First I listed the available devices that X can &#8216;see&#8217;:</p>
<blockquote><p>xsetwacom list</p></blockquote>
<p>This will give all the different inputs it has available. Depending on the exact model the output will be slightly different, mine was as below. Make a note of the listing somewhere (e.g. paste in a text file) as these device names will be used in a minute to send commands to the various inputs.</p>
<blockquote><p>Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger pad PAD<br />
Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger touch TOUCH<br />
Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen eraser ERASER<br />
Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen stylus STYLUS</p></blockquote>
<p>We need to find out the internal dimensions (i.e. as represented in the software) for the active area of the tablet. This can be done using xsetwacom, which can give out information as well as changing options. I want to know its vertical and horizontal dimensions which are defined by the top/bottom X and Y coordinate. I won&#8217;t reiterate all the syntax options for xsetwacom here as they are  documented elsewhere, but broadly, &#8211;set commands will change a  parameter value and &#8211;get commands will display its current value. So  here, I am listing out the coordinate positions at which the active region starts and stops.</p>
<blockquote><p>xsetwacom get &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen stylus&#8221; TopX<br />
xsetwacom get &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen stylus&#8221; BottomX<br />
xsetwacom get &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen stylus&#8221; TopY<br />
xsetwacom get &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen stylus&#8221; BottomY</p></blockquote>
<p>This gives me respectively 0, 14720, 0, 9200 &#8211; a dimension of <strong>9200</strong> units for the short side and <strong>14720</strong> for the long side (an aspect ratio of 16:10).</p>
<p>Since my monitor has a 16:9 ratio as detailed earlier, I now need to &#8220;trim off&#8221; part of the area of the tablet so that the short side is in proportion to the &#8220;9&#8243; rather than the &#8220;10&#8243; (16:9 vs 16:10) in the display.</p>
<p>The mathematical bit (that I had to re-do initially due to errors in mental arithmetic! This is the correct version. <img src='http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-includes/images/smilies/icon_smile.gif' alt=':)' class='wp-smiley' />  )</p>
<ul>
<li>The current dimension on the short side is 9200 units (as found out above)</li>
<li>I want to make this a smaller number, so that some of the units are &#8216;unused&#8217;.</li>
<li>9200 / 10 * 9 = 8280 units (I confirmed this by calculating that 14720 / 8280 gives the aspect ratio of 16:9)</li>
<li>I want to split this inactive region (920) equally across the top and bottom, as if I have 2 &#8220;black bars&#8221; (you could have the inactive region all together if you want, so the active part is a &#8216;corner&#8217; of the surface rather than centred) so each inactive area should be 920 / 2 = 460.</li>
</ul>
<p>So I want the &#8220;top Y&#8221; position (i.e. where the active region starts) to be at 460, and the &#8220;bottom Y&#8221; to be at 8740 (9200 &#8211; 460):</p>
<blockquote><p>xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen stylus&#8221; TopY 460<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen stylus&#8221; BottomY 8740</p></blockquote>
<p>The same principle applies to the other devices (eraser, touch etc) as listed in the original output. If you wanted the inactive region to be in one &#8220;block&#8221; then the Y could start at 920 and finish at 9200.</p>
<p>The &#8216;active region&#8217; however it is currently defined will be applied proportionally to the screen area. The settings are for each device so need to be set separately.</p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p><strong>Handling rotation (to portrait mode) of the monitor and tablet</strong></p>
<p>With the monitor in landscape format this should all work correctly but what about when the monitor is in portrait rotation? (Assuming you&#8217;ve rotated the actual monitor display as well!) It will all be out of proportion again&#8230;</p>
<p>The principle is similar, but also uses a rotation command on the tablet, so that it can be physically placed in front of you in &#8220;portrait&#8221; orientation (if this was not done, you would draw a vertical line on the tablet and it would come out horizontal! <img src='http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-includes/images/smilies/icon_smile.gif' alt=':)' class='wp-smiley' />  ) again using xsetwacom, for example:</p>
<blockquote><p>xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen stylus&#8221; rotate ccw</p></blockquote>
<p>As above, the rotation applies to each device. (To get it back to standard &#8216;landscape&#8217; orientation you can do the same command but tell it to &#8220;rotate none&#8221;.) The rotation is &#8216;absolute&#8217; rather than relative, i.e. if you rotate ccw again when you have already done it, it won&#8217;t rotate a &#8216;further&#8217; 90 degrees.</p>
<p>The active/inactive area will then need to be set, similar to how it was done above, but taking account of which is the &#8220;X&#8221; and which is the &#8220;Y&#8221; dimension (which are different when it&#8217;s rotated). For example:</p>
<blockquote><p>xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen stylus&#8221; TopY 0<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen stylus&#8221; BottomY 14720<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen stylus&#8221; TopX 460<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen stylus&#8221; BottomX 8740</p></blockquote>
<p>There is a command in xsetwacom which will reset to default the top X, top Y, bottom X and bottom Y positions, rather than set them back &#8220;manually&#8221;, if required &#8211; e.g.</p>
<blockquote><p>xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen stylus&#8221; xyDefault 0</p></blockquote>
<p>Rather than set it back to 0, 9200, 0, 14720 I could have &#8220;shortcut&#8221; this by resetting the defaults, but this would only make sense for the standard laptop display (on my setup) due to the aspect ratio.</p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p><strong>Batching up the commands into a script and adding command buttons (optional)<br />
</strong></p>
<p>This part is optional, and there are other ways this can be accomplished, but what I wanted to do was get all the commands into one file that could be used to set various options (touch on/off, landscape/portrait/laptop orientation) without needing to copy and paste the relevant commands every time. I also didn&#8217;t want to set them as a global default as I may or may not be using the monitor, touch etc so I just wanted the laptop default on boot.</p>
<p>Having tested each of the commands (this can be done by e.g. sending the command to terminal, checking that a circle draws correctly and the right area of the tablet/screen can be accessed, etc) I put them into a text file which I saved to the filesystem as a shell script (bamboo-set-options.sh but it can be called whatever you like) and made it executable.</p>
<p>This page is far too long already so I won&#8217;t go into how to program a script in any great detail, but just note that I have set up the one below so that I can execute the script with the argument -p, -l, -s, -touch-on or -touch-off to set each option. The script doesn&#8217;t change the monitor orientation programmatically, though this could be added. It sets all the relevant options, so doesn&#8217;t rely on what it was set to previously (i.e. &#8220;assuming&#8221; that topX was already 0 etc).</p>
<p>(I&#8217;ve included a complete copy of my file at the end)</p>
<p>I then made a custom set of menu buttons in the Ubuntu GUI calling the script with each relevant argument in turn. So for example I have a button for &#8220;portrait monitor&#8221;, one for &#8220;touch off&#8221; etc. This could be tailored according to what you need. Clicking on each button means I can then run all the relevant commands for that setup, without needing to call the script with the arguments again manually (or type it all in&#8230;)</p>
<blockquote><p>#!/bin/bash<br />
#<br />
# Configuration script for Wacom Bamboo Pen &amp; Touch tablet<br />
# for widescreen monitor and touch sentitivity<br />
#<br />
# &#8212; SET ROTATION AND ACTIVE REGION<br />
# For the monitor, aspect ratio 16:9 does not match ratio for tablet (16:10),<br />
# so we proportion the active region down accordingly for the X and Y coordinates.<br />
# Short side = 9200 by default and long side = 14720 (as per xsetwacom and tested).<br />
# So for 16:9 AR, we scale down the 9200 to 8280, then split the difference equally<br />
# between the two sides giving &#8220;top&#8221; position 460 (0 + 460) and &#8220;bottom&#8221; 8740 (9200 &#8211; 460)<br />
#<br />
# Arguments: [ -p (portrait) | -l (landscape) | -s (standard 16:10) ]<br />
#<br />
case $1 in<br />
-p)<br />
# Set rotation to counter clockwise and restrict X dimensions<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen stylus&#8221; rotate ccw<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen stylus&#8221; TopY 0<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen stylus&#8221; BottomY 14720<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen stylus&#8221; TopX 460<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen stylus&#8221; BottomX 8740<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen eraser&#8221; rotate ccw<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen eraser&#8221; TopY 0<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen eraser&#8221; BottomY 14720<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen eraser&#8221; TopX 460<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen eraser&#8221; BottomX 8740<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger pad&#8221; rotate ccw<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger pad&#8221; TopY 0<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger pad&#8221; BottomY 14720<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger pad&#8221; TopX 460<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger pad&#8221; BottomX 8740<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger touch&#8221; rotate ccw<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger touch&#8221; TopY 0<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger touch&#8221; BottomY 14720<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger touch&#8221; TopX 460<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger touch&#8221; BottomX 8740;;<br />
-l)<br />
# Set rotation to none (ie &#8220;normal&#8221; orientation) and restrict Y dimensions<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen stylus&#8221; rotate none<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen stylus&#8221; TopY 460<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen stylus&#8221; BottomY 8740<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen stylus&#8221; TopX 0<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen stylus&#8221; BottomX 14720<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen eraser&#8221; rotate none<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen eraser&#8221; TopY 460<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen eraser&#8221; BottomY 8740<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen eraser&#8221; TopX 0<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen eraser&#8221; BottomX 14720<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger pad&#8221; rotate none<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger pad&#8221; TopY 460<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger pad&#8221; BottomY 8740<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger pad&#8221; TopX 0<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger pad&#8221; BottomX 14720<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger touch&#8221; rotate none<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger touch&#8221; TopY 460<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger touch&#8221; BottomY 8740<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger touch&#8221; TopX 0<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger touch&#8221; BottomX 14720;;<br />
-s)<br />
# Set rotation to &#8220;normal&#8221; and reset X and Y dimensions<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen stylus&#8221; rotate none<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen stylus&#8221; TopY 0<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen stylus&#8221; BottomY 9200<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen stylus&#8221; TopX 0<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen stylus&#8221; BottomX 14720<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen eraser&#8221; rotate none<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen eraser&#8221; TopY 0<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen eraser&#8221; BottomY 9200<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen eraser&#8221; TopX 0<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Pen eraser&#8221; BottomX 14720<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger pad&#8221; rotate none<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger pad&#8221; TopY 0<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger pad&#8221; BottomY 9200<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger pad&#8221; TopX 0<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger pad&#8221; BottomX 14720<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger touch&#8221; rotate none<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger touch&#8221; TopY 0<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger touch&#8221; BottomY 9200<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger touch&#8221; TopX 0<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger touch&#8221; BottomX 14720;;</p>
<p>-touch-off)<br />
# set touchpad OFF<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger touch&#8221; touch off;;</p>
<p>-touch-on)<br />
# set touchpad ON<br />
xsetwacom set &#8220;Wacom BambooFun 2FG 4&#215;5 Finger touch&#8221; touch on;;</p>
<p>esac</p></blockquote>
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		<title>Listening: Concerto for Constantine &#8211; Minsk</title>
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		<dc:creator>anna</dc:creator>
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I came across this band via JJ72 (they&#8217;re the new band of one of the members) who I had known about for years initially from playing support with the Dandy Warhols. In some ways this is similar, but perhaps more &#8216;experimental&#8217; and heavier.</p>
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		<description><![CDATA[<p>Here&#8217;s a poem, a haiku? by Jorge Luis Borges. (Quoted from websites such as this one &#8211; &#8220;criticism or review&#8221; of Borges under fair use as I understand it.)</p> <p>Since that day I have not moved the pieces On the board</p> <p>I don&#8217;t know what this rather short poem is &#8216;really&#8217; about and I [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Here&#8217;s a poem, a haiku? by Jorge Luis Borges. (Quoted from websites such as <a href="http://www.google.com/url?sa=t&amp;source=web&amp;cd=4&amp;ved=0CCkQFjAD&amp;url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.fanfiction.net%2Fs%2F3008922%2F1%2FSummer_Waiting&amp;rct=j&amp;q=borges%20%22since%20that%20day%22%20%22i%20have%20not%20moved%22&amp;ei=wEOaTc_8A8TJhAeny8SeCw&amp;usg=AFQjCNFzLuCf2OkNz0ViEfJegpcUCEFHlg&amp;cad=rja">this one</a> &#8211; &#8220;criticism or review&#8221; of Borges under fair use as I understand it.)</p>
<blockquote><p>Since that day<br />
I have not moved the pieces<br />
On the board</p></blockquote>
<p>I don&#8217;t know what this rather short poem is &#8216;really&#8217; about and I didn&#8217;t read for any interpretations. [1] In my mind, it&#8217;s a chess board. A parting, not amicable (or not anticipated). A vestigial remainder. That things move on, people move on, but somewhere, you don&#8217;t, not quite. A suspension of a state of being, pending a future reanimation, or an indefinite freeze. You don&#8217;t know.</p>
<p>Two events. This I believe (if real life were fiction) to be &#8216;foreshadowing&#8217;. An established literary technique. Life imitating art, etc.</p>
<p><span id="more-624"></span>A couple of things to understand: I generally take a rational, logical approach (to a fault). When not generating mad ideas. I scorn maudlin sentimentality. But perhaps it has its place. Denying it seems counter-productive.</p>
<p>Number one: a holiday. To a UK destination (can&#8217;t fly, etc). A guy. Much older than me, though perhaps not quite &#8216;old enough to be my dad&#8217; (I was a reasonable age!) An attachment I can&#8217;t explain, a plastic cup and straw (Slush Puppy gone) that I had purchased from this guy the day we left. I got home, felt flat and kept the cup weeks. Months. (Probably still have it, actually!) Eventually it faded.</p>
<p>Years later, a guy. A visit. An attachment I can&#8217;t explain, a flatness after he went back, not depression exactly, but a sense that nothing would ever be exciting, or mean anything again. A feeling normally associated with homesickness. Things we&#8217;d touched and moved, now, not to be moved again. A Scrabble board with letters still on.</p>
<p style="text-align: right;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/toxickore/2213739535/"><img class="alignright size-medium wp-image-625" title="scrabble" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/2213739535_be22e79984-300x225.jpg" alt="" width="300" height="225" /></a><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/toxickore/2213739535/" target="_blank">Image credit: &#8216;Scrabble&#8217; by Flickr user toxickore, used under a Creative Commons attribution license</a></p>
<p>For days, weeks, afterwards, what would I do with myself, what could I do? There were the few things I could immediately do and then nothing.</p>
<p>(This I think is how people feel when someone (that they have funereally administrative responsibility for) dies. You miss the person, and at first there&#8217;s things to do, lists of people to invite to the funeral, food to order, banks to contact, sympathetic visitors to receive. And then, an expanse of nothing.)</p>
<p>I couldn&#8217;t bear to &#8216;dismantle&#8217; the Scrabble board, it was the one link with those weeks.</p>
<p>One or two of the letters came off. I could replace them, but it wasn&#8217;t substantially the same.</p>
<p>I don&#8217;t do sentimental. I don&#8217;t do tangible objects (only concepts). So what the&#8230;?</p>
<p>This I don&#8217;t understand. I try to be logical and rational (when not madly generating off the wall ideas) at all times, unfortunately it means emotion comes up and hits me at inconvenient moments. According to the MBTI personality theories as an ENTP I shouldn&#8217;t be maudlin, I shouldn&#8217;t have nostalgia, or sentiment. Then what is this?</p>
<p>A &#8216;box&#8217;, a &#8216;pigeonhole&#8217;, isn&#8217;t everything, I know. But I&#8217;ve found it to have great explanatory power, in general. I don&#8217;t have a strong Thinking preference (though I am definitely a Thinker, even so).</p>
<p>Sometimes, though, it&#8217;s almost reassuring to revel in being maudlin, in experiencing sentiment aesthetically, in the way that one does with a work of literature, or art. Recognition of separation from self. A state of being, that one &#8216;experiences&#8217; rather than &#8216;is&#8217;.</p>
<p>[1] I&#8217;m not too good with poetry, despite having studied Literature: I  mostly read for content rather than form, and have to confess I don&#8217;t  understand a lot of poetry. It seems verbally and lyrically inefficient.  I can count on one hand (or two at the most) the &#8216;famous&#8217; poets I&#8217;ve  actually read and enjoyed: Emily Dickinson. Miroslav Holub. Sylvia  Plath. TS Eliot. A few others. And of course Borges.</p>
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		<title>When none of the explanations for fear of flying fit: Look further back</title>
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		<dc:creator>anna</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[<p>I&#8217;ve flown twice in my life (4 times if you count the outward and return legs separately); once at the age of six to a European destination (I live in the UK) and once as a young adult (to the USA).</p> <p>Aged 6 I didn&#8217;t have any pre-conceptions and no fear that I recall. [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>I&#8217;ve flown twice in my life (4 times if you count the outward and return legs separately); once at the age of six to a European destination (I live in the UK) and once as a young adult (to the USA).</p>
<p>Aged 6 I didn&#8217;t have any pre-conceptions and no fear that I recall. As an adult I was terrified. And this was pre-9/11 (had it been after 9/11 I don&#8217;t think I would have been able to go at all!). So what had changed?</p>
<p>This is something that&#8217;s been bothering me increasingly lately, so (as with any query) I turned to the wisdom of the Internerds and Googled It. And what I found was all the write-ups about &#8220;fear of flying and how to conquer it&#8221; etc didn&#8217;t fit &#8211; none of the normal explanations (claustrophobia, vertigo, fear of being idle) seem to apply.</p>
<p><span id="more-618"></span><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/10037058@N08/3833145837/"><img class="alignleft size-medium wp-image-619" title="3833145837_52ee8db8c8" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/03/3833145837_52ee8db8c8-300x199.jpg" alt="" width="300" height="199" /></a><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/10037058@N08/3833145837/" target="_blank">Image credit: American Airlines 767 by Flickr user James (Pylon757) used under a Creative Commons Attribution license</a></p>
<p>It&#8217;s hard to believe it was 10 years ago that I visited America but it is so! I was travelling by myself (to meet people out there) and had an increasing sense of anxiety and doooom as the day of departure came closer. As a (most of the time) rational and logical person I looked up all the usual information &#8211; statistics of air accidents and how it is much safer than driving, principles of aerodynamics and &#8220;planes do actually want to be in the air&#8221;, etc.</p>
<p>None of it made much difference, I was still terrified. It&#8217;s the same feeling (only much more so) you have coming up to a much anticipated and dreaded event, like an exam, job interview for a job you really need or want, and so on. I was at the age of being a newly minted adult though and of legal majority to do what I wanted and not (necessarily) what parents wanted. So I was going to go!</p>
<p>Vertigo? &#8211; No, I&#8217;m always the person that looks down from the 20th floor window, goes out to the edge of a cliff and says &#8220;hey, look down here!&#8221; before standing on one leg to lean out and get the perfect photo 200ft down a cliff (especially now I have my shiny new wide angle lens!).</p>
<p>Claustrophobia? Motion sickness? Not something that&#8217;s ever bothered me (the only time I have got motion sickness was on a very rough ferry ride, for about 3 days after the crossing I still had that &#8220;side to side&#8221; sea feeling!)</p>
<p>Lack of control over the situation? Seems closer but still doesn&#8217;t really match the exact feeling.</p>
<p>No, I think it&#8217;s more the sense that once you have &#8216;committed&#8217; to the point of no return there&#8217;s no undoing it, anything could happen up there, and you&#8217;d be completely on your own, and might not know how to deal with the situation (I have no issue with asking other people for help, but I generally don&#8217;t trust them to be competent!) &#8211; Being irrevocably tied in to a course of action.</p>
<p><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/frankieroberto/2399612184/"><img class="alignright size-medium wp-image-620" title="2399612184_67bc7790eb" src="http://grainy-squares.thetorturegarden.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/03/2399612184_67bc7790eb-300x225.jpg" alt="" width="300" height="225" /></a></p>
<p style="text-align: right;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/frankieroberto/2399612184/" target="_blank">Image credit: Inside the plane by Flickr user Frankie Roberto, used under a Creative Commons Attribution license</a></p>
<p>It didn&#8217;t help on the flight out to America that every time we encountered some mild (?) turbulence the lady in the seat next to me was praying! Hands folded to face and everything. I don&#8217;t have a particular religious outlook myself but seeing an experienced flyer (she said so) in prayer every time we come up against an unfamiliar (to me) sensation isn&#8217;t encouraging. Any time there was a strange noise or &#8216;bump&#8217; I just had this feeling of dread and anxiety, that &#8220;this is it&#8221;. But of course everything was OK and I arrived without incident. The trip back was worse as I knew it was inevitable (couldn&#8217;t stay in America forever for visa reasons!) and had worked myself up into even more dread and anxiety over it in the intervening time. The plane back was mostly empty (less than 1/3 full) so there wasn&#8217;t really anyone around to ask or have a sneaky look at to see if they looked concerned.</p>
<p>All of these flights were &#8216;textbook&#8217; and as I say it was before 9/11 and all the screening process that that entails now, so ostensibly there was nothing to be concerned about.</p>
<p>Also why has the fear got worse in the 10 years since I flew, is this all due to 9/11 and fear of terrorism and so on? That&#8217;s a subject for another post but I don&#8217;t think terrorism etc fully explains it. It&#8217;s more some unresolved issue that my subconscious has had ample time to work on in the meantime!</p>
<p>This bothers me lately since I have the increasing sense that I&#8217;m prevented (through my own doing) from doing a lot of the things I&#8217;d like to, visiting places I&#8217;d like to visit (Italy, Iceland) by being unwilling to fly. I don&#8217;t have the type of job that requires travel (luckily) but don&#8217;t know how I would respond if we were asked to go abroad for a training course or similar (or when I want to work for myself and have to meet clients, deal with suppliers and so on).</p>
<p>The other day I was thinking about this and wondering why I&#8217;m so afraid when it&#8217;s not &#8216;rational&#8217;. I don&#8217;t worry about driving or taking the train (rather enjoy them actually). But I remember now: before first flying, age 6, my mum (who also doesn&#8217;t like flying) briefed me about what to expect shortly before we left and it was as follows: (paraphrase) There&#8217;s been a lot in the news lately about planes being hijacked [this was in the late 80s] so if the one we travel on is hijacked, you need to remember to keep quiet, do what they say and not start shouting your mouth off because they&#8217;ll probably shoot! It was a family holiday: grandparents, mum and me.</p>
<p>I had this vivid mental image at the time (age 6) of us being sat 4 abreast (do you get this seating layout? Window, middle, middle, aisle? I think I&#8217;ve just imagined that) in order of &#8220;seniority&#8221;: My Grandad, my Nanny, mum and me. And some hijacker or other nefarious persons appearing. And going from my grandad sideways, across the seats, one to the other: &#8220;Don&#8217;t shoot my wife!&#8221; BANG! &#8220;Don&#8217;t shoot my daughter!&#8221; BANG! &#8220;Don&#8217;t shoot my daughter!&#8221; BANG! And then it would be just me left alive&#8230; and I would only be a child, and how would I know how to deal with the assailants, what to say, what to do? Then I&#8217;d be totally alone. I hadn&#8217;t been briefed for that situation.</p>
<p>So what really causes the fear of flying? For me at least, it&#8217;s the (possibly repressed) feeling that if something goes wrong, what to do, how to recognise it? What to do when no one around you is responding or sees that there&#8217;s a problem? (This is a much broader issue than just with flying which I plan to write about separately at another time) &#8211; That I think is why statistics about plane accidents, knowledge of increased security protocol etc don&#8217;t really help. These things only have value with problems that have already occurred. What we really need is predictive validity.</p>
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